Oregon

I have no words.

Last Chance Love

We landed in Oregon a couple hours ago and are now at Grandma and Grandpa's house <3 I love it here. Feels like home.

We're heading over to see Dad in about 20 minutes. I'm so nervous. I want answers. I want to know how he could have done this to us ...and if he isn't interested in being honest then I'm not interested in talking to him.

Love

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My World

Joel and I are heading up to Oregon on Thursday. We wont be there long - we come back on Saturday - but I'm a little anxious about seeing Dad. Grandma and Grandpa are insisting that we stay with them, and Grandma assures me that Dad has been told that he isn't to come to the house unless he clears it with me.

As much as I'd rather not, I know I have to see him. I plan on going over there at some point on the Thursday, with Joel, getting it over and done with, and then spending Friday with Grandma and Grandpa. And then Joel and I are meeting with Hannah, whom I have known since I was seven, and going to dinner with her and her new man, Josh. She's a suuuper cool chick and we always hang out whenever I make it back to town.

I have no idea what I'm gonna say to Dad. I'm also nervous about what he's gonna say about the engagement. I mean, nothing he could say would change a thing, but I don't want him giving Joel a hard time about not asking his permission. Fact is, I asked him, a couple months ago, not to ask Dad's permission whenever the time came, because I'm no longer his.

I asked Missa whether she wanted me to tell him anything, but she doesn't have anything to say to him. I'm not sure she'll ever recover from this... and I can't say that I blame her. She always finds it hard to forgive, whether it's something as huge as this or something as little as a stupid argument with Daniel. It's just her nature.

Serena has given me a letter to give to him. I've no idea what it says. Mom wants me to tell him that he can have the house, and also that she wont stop him seeing Serena, should Serena ever want to see him. And that's about all.

All Hallow's Eve

Halloween was awesome! Joel drove down to Laguna yesterday morning, picked Victoria up and brought her back to LA. We decided it would be nice to take her and Serena out and have her spend the night with us. Words can't describe how happy it makes me to see Serena smiling and laughing, being the kid that she was never able to be back in Oregon. She told us that she hadn't been out on Halloween since the last time Missa and I took her... and that was at least three years ago, so we wanted to do something special and show her a real good time. And I think we did.

I ate so much candy last night. If candy were alcoholic I would have been wrecked.

Blondie

So, I have a surprise...



I'm blonde!

Yes, it is true! I haven't been blonde since I was six. Craziness! Esme, my wonderful hairdresser, came to the apartment yesterday to do my hair, as she does once a month, and I told her that I wanted a new color altogether. Something not red. She suggested that I go platinum blonde. I wasn't sure that it would suit me, but she assured me that it would, and I trust her completely... and here I am, almost as blonde as Cady Cross-Rider!



I do like it... but I don't know how long I'll keep it. I already miss my gingerness. Roxy is gonna be pissed =] But Joel likes it. He says it makes him want to make sex with me.

When You Wish Upon A Star

Yesterday was, quite possibly, the most awesome day in Lynx Torbin history.

I'm engaged.

I'M ENGAGED!

He proposed to me at Disneyland! I'm still in shock! I can't stop smiling. Never in a million years would I have guessed that he was planning to propose to me! We've talked about getting married a lot, and I knew we'd do it someday, but I didn't think it would happen until we were, like, 25.

I'm getting married... How insane does that sound!? And I can't believe he proposed at Disneyland! I might be the luckiest person on the planet.

When It Don't Come Easy

Gracie sent me this. I hadn't seen it. That was a FUN shoot!

Seeing Double

The Twins are in LA! Woohoo!

Disneyland on Tuesday! I'm sooo excited! Looks like it'll be Lindsay, Roxy, Malachi, Jason, Missa, Gracie, Kizzie, Beth, Cady, Harry, Raven, Daniel, Joel and I. It's gonna be AWESOME! The park is closing to the public at 6pm, and we go at 7pm. Yes, we have Disneyland to ourselves! Knowing Lindsay and Roxy Stevens certainly has it's advantages! I have no idea how they managed to swing that one.

Twenty Something

About to go to dinner with my man.

We decided to drive out to Laguna this morning and spend the day with his parents, David and Amanda, and his little sister, Victoria, who is absolutely adorable. Such a sweet kid... and there's about three months between her and Serena, so we're gonna organize a play date!

Back In Black

I have an entire week to be lazy and do absolutely nothing. Fun times!

I'm hanging out with Gracie and Missa tomorrow, and Joel and I are going to Kizzie's exhibition on Monday night. I'm super excited! Her clothes are amazing!

I don't really have any other plans. Perhaps I'll wing it and see where time takes me.

Serena noticed that I have a hickey on my neck today and decided to announce it to Mom over dinner. She calls it a 'lovey'.

Decadence

iChat with Lindsay and Roxy! Joel shreddin' guitar in the background.

Whiskey A Go Go tonight!

We're about to soundcheck! Mom, Serena and Missa got here about ten minutes ago and are sticking around to see the show.

I had to call Dad today to let him know that Mom was starting divorce proceedings. I don't think he was all that bothered, to be completely honest. I miss Grandma Lucy and Grandpa Kevin a lot. We've all spoken to them - Mom included - at least once a week since Mom and Serena have been here.

Joel and I have discussed going up to Oregon at some point within the next month. I wouldn't want to be there that long, maybe a couple days, but I do want to see Grandma and Grandpa before Christmas. I know I'd have to see Dad... and whilst that would be hard, I do have questions that I need answering.

I guess it's something I need to think about a little more.