Blondie

So, I have a surprise...



I'm blonde!

Yes, it is true! I haven't been blonde since I was six. Craziness! Esme, my wonderful hairdresser, came to the apartment yesterday to do my hair, as she does once a month, and I told her that I wanted a new color altogether. Something not red. She suggested that I go platinum blonde. I wasn't sure that it would suit me, but she assured me that it would, and I trust her completely... and here I am, almost as blonde as Cady Cross-Rider!



I do like it... but I don't know how long I'll keep it. I already miss my gingerness. Roxy is gonna be pissed =] But Joel likes it. He says it makes him want to make sex with me.

When You Wish Upon A Star

Yesterday was, quite possibly, the most awesome day in Lynx Torbin history.

I'm engaged.

I'M ENGAGED!

He proposed to me at Disneyland! I'm still in shock! I can't stop smiling. Never in a million years would I have guessed that he was planning to propose to me! We've talked about getting married a lot, and I knew we'd do it someday, but I didn't think it would happen until we were, like, 25.

I'm getting married... How insane does that sound!? And I can't believe he proposed at Disneyland! I might be the luckiest person on the planet.

When It Don't Come Easy

Gracie sent me this. I hadn't seen it. That was a FUN shoot!

Seeing Double

The Twins are in LA! Woohoo!

Disneyland on Tuesday! I'm sooo excited! Looks like it'll be Lindsay, Roxy, Malachi, Jason, Missa, Gracie, Kizzie, Beth, Cady, Harry, Raven, Daniel, Joel and I. It's gonna be AWESOME! The park is closing to the public at 6pm, and we go at 7pm. Yes, we have Disneyland to ourselves! Knowing Lindsay and Roxy Stevens certainly has it's advantages! I have no idea how they managed to swing that one.

Twenty Something

About to go to dinner with my man.

We decided to drive out to Laguna this morning and spend the day with his parents, David and Amanda, and his little sister, Victoria, who is absolutely adorable. Such a sweet kid... and there's about three months between her and Serena, so we're gonna organize a play date!

Back In Black

I have an entire week to be lazy and do absolutely nothing. Fun times!

I'm hanging out with Gracie and Missa tomorrow, and Joel and I are going to Kizzie's exhibition on Monday night. I'm super excited! Her clothes are amazing!

I don't really have any other plans. Perhaps I'll wing it and see where time takes me.

Serena noticed that I have a hickey on my neck today and decided to announce it to Mom over dinner. She calls it a 'lovey'.

Decadence

iChat with Lindsay and Roxy! Joel shreddin' guitar in the background.

Whiskey A Go Go tonight!

We're about to soundcheck! Mom, Serena and Missa got here about ten minutes ago and are sticking around to see the show.

I had to call Dad today to let him know that Mom was starting divorce proceedings. I don't think he was all that bothered, to be completely honest. I miss Grandma Lucy and Grandpa Kevin a lot. We've all spoken to them - Mom included - at least once a week since Mom and Serena have been here.

Joel and I have discussed going up to Oregon at some point within the next month. I wouldn't want to be there that long, maybe a couple days, but I do want to see Grandma and Grandpa before Christmas. I know I'd have to see Dad... and whilst that would be hard, I do have questions that I need answering.

I guess it's something I need to think about a little more.

Rewind

Rewind to... 2008


Our trip to Paris.

Joel told me that he was taking me away, but he wouldn't tell me where we were going. He even made me wait with the bags whilst he got our boarding passes! And then they called Flight 176 to Paris and he stood up... and I was excited enough to jump around the airport like a complete moron.

We rented bikes and rode around Paris like spoiled kids, or teenagers, which I suppose we were, and still are to some extent, though we're no longer teenagers.

We went to this super expensive, upper class restaurant on our second evening there and the waiters just kept topping us up with this amazing wine. We were both completely wasted by desert.

Good times!

You Belong With Me

You + Me = how it's meant to be.

I don't know what to say when I'm around you.
Words seem to fail me. Nothing makes sense.
Except you and me, baby.

Sisters

I took Serena to work with me this morning, and then we went to the Santa Monica Pier and hung out! I had an awesome time and am so glad I got to spend some one-on-one time with her. I hate that we don't get to bond as much as we'd like to. Work always seems to get in the way... but I'm learning =]

And my 8-year-old sister has bigger balls than I do. I was more scared about the rides at the pier than she was.

You

What did I do to deserve him? We were talking last night and he asked what I thought about getting married in a couple years... and I know we said we'd wait until we were in our late twenties, but I kinda like the idea.

Lynx Torbin-Hensen...

He is quite awesome to me... and the sex has been exceptionally great lately. I mean, don't get it twisted, Joel was always good in bed... but this is amazing =]

I didn't have to work today, so we spent the day converting the study - which had virtually nothing in it, since we have nothing to study - into a music room. We moved all the instruments in there and it's actually looking kinda rad!

Messing around on the drums. Kaden taught me to play about two years ago.
I also play piano, guitar and some violin =]

Sunday Bloody Sunday

The acoustic set went well, though I am now a little hoarse...

My Dad called as we were driving back to Park La Brea. Fortunately Joel was the only other person in the car - Kaden went to get something to eat in downtown with Liam and James, and then hitched a ride with them. I put my iPhone on speaker so Joel could hear the conversation. I'm not about deceiving anybody, so I told Dad that he was on speaker and Joel was in the car. Dad said he didn't have a problem with it to begin with... but then decided, when the conversation became heated and I told him straight out that Missa and I didn't have much to say to a man that beat a woman, that he wasn't 'comfortable' with Joel listening to 'his business'. I was so mad at that point that I told him he'd have to deal with it, because Joel is my business and I'm his, and that he'd been the one taking Serena out, that he'd been the one to sit with her and soothe her when her mother was crying her eyes out in the next room.

I wont repeat exactly what Dad said to that, but you could probably guess. He then told me that all he wanted was to see his girls. By this point I was in tears and we had pulled over because I was driving. Joel was holding my hand and had pulled me over to lean against his shoulder... and I knew I had to tell him.

Last week, Missa, Serena and I sat down over lunch and had a long conversation about the situation between Mom and Dad, during which we asked Serena to tell us what it was that she wanted.

Needless to say, Dad was none too pleased. He cursed, he cried, he apologized... and I became quiet upset, so Joel whispered that I should tell him that I need time and would call him at a later date. Dad wasn't happy but he eventually let up.

I know that I will never forgive what Dad did, but I have come to terms with it. I also know that I will always love him, because he's my Dad and we had some great times together... but I will never be able to look him in the eye, or even put my arms around him, because that same man abused my Mom, the most beautiful person in the world, virtually since the day Missa and I came to California, sometimes in front of my baby sister, his own child. And that I can never, ever forgive, or forget.

That's What You Get

Setting up to rock an acoustic set at KROQ!

Kaden showed up at the apartment at seven this morning. I'll kill him someday soon. We were still asleep, but Mom was up and she let him in. He literally dived into bed with us. Turns out he woke up at six and couldn't get back to sleep, so he decided to walk over to our place and get a ride to KROQ with us...

It is never a good experience when you wake up to discover Kaden Henson in your bed =]

Just Like Me

Joel and I took Mom and Serena on a surprise outing to Disneyland yesterday!

Isn't Disneyland awesome!? Who doesn't love Disneyland? It's magical! I even met Mini Mouse! Serena and I had our picture taken with her.



Joel took me to Disneyland on our third date. We shared a horse on the carousel, him behind me, his arms around my waist. We were laughing hysterically and I leaned back, relaxing against his chest. He started to kiss my cheek and I started to fall in love.

Temporary

Serena and I had 'the talk' this morning.

I was headed out to work and she was sat at the kitchen table, doing some school work, when I went into the kitchen to get my iPhone and my pill. She asked me what I was taking. I told her that it was a birth control pill. She wanted to know what it did. I decided to be honest, and I told her... and she quite literally shouted 'EW! You and Joel have sex!'

It was quite hilarious.

Don't you wish you were still that innocent?

I'm Pretty Optimistic

At the swimming baths with Mommy! We're getting exercised!

I'm in good-ish shape at the moment... but I realize that I'll need to be in much better shape in order to give one-hundred percent on that little headlining tour I'll be embarking on in January 2010...

So, here's the plan!

I will not slack on my yoga.
I will not slack on my pilates.
I will swim with Mom and Missa once a week.
I will go to the gym with Joel once a week.
I will maintain an active sex life (GREAT exercise and a GREAT time all around).

And come February I'll be in the best shape you ever did see.

Hello Hello

Spent the day at the mall with Gracie, and then we went to dinner at Koi. I miss her a lot. We both work so much these days that we rarely get to hang. It sucks. She has her own Purse collection, Gemini, and it's been picked up by a couple boutiques in LA and has been selling like crazy, so she's been as busy as I have and we haven't been able to hang in a while.

I asked whether she wanted to come out on the road with us in January... and she said she would!! I'm soooo excited! This entire experience is gonna be a blast! I wish we could go now. January seems so long away...

All I Wanted

I'M GOING ON TOUR!

Met with the label this morning and received my schedule! I'm sooo stoked! Tickets go on sale Monday morning!

The Born For This Tour 2010 begins on January 4th and starts in New York, so I'll be able to spend New Years with The Twins! How awesome is that!? The tour continues through February and ends in early March. We play 38 venues!

Joel and Missa will be on the road with us throughout the entire tour, and Mom and Serena are coming out for the first two weeks. Can't wait!!

Decode

I have grown to love iChat dates with The Twins! Sexy!

In other awesome news, my Hula Hoop arrived this morning! I woke up to discover Serena attempting to teach Joel how to 'Hula' in the lounge...

He sucks at it. I rule. Hula Hoops were the 'thing' when I was in sixth grade, okay? Plus, it's decent exercise. We had some laughs tryna get Mom to do it... but she was actually pretty good at it when she eventually caved.

Serena has a little pal! I'm so, so glad. I can't tell you how happy it makes me to see her settling in. She's been so incredibly mature about this whole situation. I was quite concerned that she wouldn't like LA, but she seems to have adapted well. The most surprising thing is seeing how much happier she is these days.