I Caught Myself

For some odd reason I've been thinking about babies non-stop these past couple days. I have never been that person. I mean, I was absolutely scared shitless when my period was late last week. I could have cried when it came, I was that relieved... so this sudden desire really makes no sense whatsoever to me.

I hear so many women telling anybody who will listen that childbirth is an amazing thing... but I absolutely cannot wrap my head around that. There is NOTHING amazing about pain, blood and having that ripped open. It seems impossible to me that a baby can come through there... but Roxy assures me that it can and will - whether you want it to or not.

The thought makes me shiver.

I do, however, believe that when the time comes and I do have to experience childbirth and all that comes with it, all that I am ignorant to now will become clear to me.

Nate must have been a week old when this was taken.