Impossible

Current destination: Seattle, Washington.

We were in Portland yesterday. Grandma and Grandpa came out to see me, which was awesome. And I met with Dad. I knew I was going to see him, of course, but I was still very nervous and apprehensive about it. Missa was adamant that she didn't want to see him so I told him that it would be better if he didn't come to the show and I met up with him elsewhere. We ended up at a nearby cafe. I took Joel with me for moral support.

He didn't ignore Joel like he did the last time we met up, which I appreciated. He seemed to be making an effort to include him in the conversation. He asked about the wedding and told me that he understood that he couldn't be there. I'm glad he said that because I was worried about it.

He asked about Missa and Serena but not about Mom. Oh well. She doesn't need him to think about her because she's a hundred times the person he'll ever be. She would never beat on someone weaker than her.

It wasn't nearly as awkward this time, which I am thankful for, but I know it's never gonna be the same. And I have to live with that.